Coming up as a young child I was very lonely and longed for a family. I didn't get much love and attention but when I did it was mostly the wrong kind of attention. It left a huge hole in my heart. I was raised mostly by my grandparents but it wasn't enough. I kept reaching out to get to know my other family. Knowing the family I already had wasn't very good, I tried and tried for years to know the others. It started out alright but it turned uglier and uglier. I still tried to ignore what was going on. At some point I had to accept that it was worse than the other part of my family. Going from so bad to even worse, I now regret the effort I put in. The bright side is that it led me to this and this new person I am. Sometimes we reach out and hold onto things in hopes of something better. Sometimes it's not what we hope for, so now I see it as double edged. You may not know which end you will end up with. I was in need of family and got the opposite. What I found was awful, more abuse, sexual dysfunction, alcoholism, mental issues, pedophiles and more. For anyone longing for family, love and attention beware that it may or may not be what you need. Go in knowing that it could be good or bad and you get to decide if it's good for you or not. If you have young children let them have an opinion, you never know what they feel and know. Just because it's family doesn't mean they will have your best interest. Those who are blessed with a loving family, don't take it for granted.